The day i screwed up.

Sianz. Ah. Pray hard I dun fail.

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Why am i so unlucky to see you again.

What the hell.

Just when I thought I was more than okay.

I just couldn't get back to what I was.

You are what you eat, you reap what you sow, you are where you live, you are who you are, that's what i believe. I hope i am right. I am who i am. Not some supervening event that caused me to become what i am.

- Back to studies.

Refreshed. Restart. Rebooting

OH well, yeah. managed to rebuild myself after i completed 3 projects. 3 more to go! and its only like 1.5 months left for exams.

Yeah anyway, thanks so much for trying to console me these days. I was so busy and tired and i can't seem to think straight. No time for sleep, no time for myself, no time to eat. I always look forward to returning back to my room, cuz its where i can sit down and rethink about the day. So I decided to cut some slack on myself, even though the presentations and projects seem never ending. Still have hall commitments. HOW to study like that?!? I just hope that as much as i would like everything to be done smoothly, not everyone is as free as others lo.

Like today, 1130 go for photoshoot, 1230 lesson, 330 go research, come back 8-9, den i have some free time. WTH.

Next week is worse. The week after next is even worse. Things dun seem to get better. Sometimes i really hope i can disappear for awhile. go somewhere and enjoy. Hm. i think cannot. HAHA. oh well, Jiayou to myself!

Too fast too furious

Hey

Yeah i know i haven't been updating about myself for months. Yeah. I've been real busy with stuff, projects, hall meetings and damn. TIME FLIES.

At first i was happy to enter into NTU. Meeting new friends, learning new stuff. It was so fun.

But i soon realised i was tired, filled with never ending tutorials, meetings and meetings, and peer pressure from my hall mates. I don't understand why. But probably because my OG have a few real good looking peoople, i can't help to feel envious about them sometimes. because they need not put in effort to get recognised. I tried to be friendly, but all i met with was a barrier. I tried talking to seniors but they just didn't try to continue the conversation. I know they're nice people, but I just can't seem to click with them. The freshies are are good friends too but i can't help but feel more and more distant from them. Only some that are more friendly talks to me like a friend. I dunno. I just feel that the seniors dislike me. Somehow. I just dun feel very comfortable with them around sometimes.

But luckily i got my friendly and crazy tutorial mates who are really fun to be with. And they really cared about me. I was kinda happy when they around. Because i know i have a group of good friends other than my hall mates. We had so much fun and stuff. And they really helped me when i needed it. Oh man. Although sometimes i feel abit left out but its alright. Better than nothing.

Then come to results. it was utterly disappointing. i had aimed for a high score, hoping to get good grades. but now its was very demoralising. i had just given away 10% of my accounting module scores, did average for my FM test.. and i have a biz law assignment due next week and i haven't do it. I felt so shitty. REALLY. And the exams are like next month and i feel so unprepared. FOr the first time. I felt like not going home but stay in hall to study. I feel like restarting everything and start mugging from the start. At least it wouldn't be so bad as now. Shit. Shit. Shit.

Sometimes i really wonder if i made the right choice to stay. apparently now my chances are slim, im not very well known although i join like hall production, children's camp, interhall games, block rep, biz manager committee. I don;t know what is wrong with me these days. but things just never work my way. i just am so sick and tired. i tried so hard but no results at all. god dammit.

and everytime i reach home, i always have to face the stress of hearing my parents quarelling. over small stuff. i jus felt like going back to hall to aviod hearing them. AHH.

I miss my freedom.

New updates.School.Outings.

Heya. I know i haven't been updating on my blog like for ages. HAHA! yeah. been busy with school and hall stuff, going out, going for supper, movies, mugging and a hell lot of other stuffs. haha! havent seen alot of you people lately! lets meet up soon yeah! HAHA!

HALL 1. FOC. NBS.

Well for starters. I VERY LONG NEHHHH BLog already. haha. too tired to do so and i'm always busy with stuff. with don't know what stuff. HAHA! NBS foc camp was funny and fun and funiee and funnn and very nice camp to be in.. haha... we're a family already! WOO! SIMPSONS!!! haha

ok i'm really tired because i didnt sleep well for 1 week so ciaos! i'll say more when im more sober.

GIP. Talk. Overseas.

Global Immersion Programme. Well, I am super into such stuffs. To study overseas for one semester is really going to make my varsity life a BLAST! If I'm going for this, i most probably will be going switzerland! OMG!

But i realised going for the talk is a total waste of time but at least it lets me know more stuffs like how those who went before felt, and how the whole things works instead of me reading up everything online. Haha!

Oh man. I want to travel!!!